Sometimes, when I'm thinking about being alone, I feel afraid. I'm afraid of losing those people who always around me whenever I need it. Its like, what am I gonna do after that? Am I gonna die? Or just move foward without thinking about it? I dont want to be a person who people looked at me like I am so irritating or demonic. I tried to smile at those person who-I-never-know and yes I do sometimes did that at a few peoples. But you know, as a human being, we can't zip up someone's mouth. Only God can do that. We are not God, we are the same so we just move on and pretend that we doesnt hear it. I wish they always with me thru all the time, happiness, sadness and etc. I wish they can understand how I really need them in my life. Like I'm not so fucking desperate on it but yeah, we as a human, we want someone that we can talk to or like keep on company me wherever I go. Hmm, lets see.