The whole night I kept waking up and checking my phone and I feel so stupid now for doing so. I think every morning, a little bit of me gives up. Experiencing this crushing disappointment every night and morning is getting tiring . It's almost over now and my heart's worse for wear but I guess I survived. I knew I'd be able to do it alone but I thought we don't want the same things anymore then. I should not care that you do not care. But unfortunately I do. I could not care less even if we tried. I'm not that careless with my feelings as you are with your heart. I know I'm not a good lover. I mess up. I start fights. I get jealous easily. I am demanding. And I always get mad. But there are three things that I love about myself. I don't play, I give my all and I love deeply.